A dialect from the Tao Te Ching:
-By Lao Tzu

“Colors blind the eye. Sounds deafen the ear. Flavors numb the taste. Toughts weaken the mind. Desires wither the heart. The master observes the world, but trusts his inner vision. He allows things to come and go. His heart is open as the sky…”

Hinduism and Buddhism are more than just religions to the people who live in the parts of Asia and Eastern Asia everywhere. They are practiced as a social philosophy to obtain cosmic order in how the universe revolves, also known as Dharma. Although, The Buddha (Siddhartha Gautama), himself was a follower of Hinduism, many of the ideas are similar, but they abstract different beliefs. Hinduism is more of a socio-religion based on a caste system, and Buddhism is based up on the concept of “suffering,” by constituting the idea of detachment. Although both religions enforce the belief that if one’s duties in life have been fulfilled they will break the cycle of rebirth, but in order to achieve this liberation from a continuous cycle of rebirth, or suffering, religious leaders such as gurus, monks, Brahmins, preachers, yogis, nuns, mentors, bodhisattvas, ascetic followers, masters, practionars, and all others who try to keep these traditions alive (whom, I also give much respect and appreciation to) dedicate their lives to preserve, study and teach their knowledge of ancient history, along with the core value of good morals, and bringing faith and hope to people of their communities in addition to helping them get by day by day.

These religious figures help teach the people and the younger generations, like myself, to continue the traditions and allowing them to move forward for later years to come. Buddhist monks and nuns and Brahmins in Hinduism devote their lives as a duty to serve the deities as well as the people of their village or their community. The Brahmins in Hinduism, are the highest in rank of India’s social caste system, are to be considered to be even higher in rank than royalty and are fortunately entitled to study the Vedas, and even the sacred texts and chants. Since Buddhism does not believe in a caste system, the monks of sanghas generally dress themselves in robes of a dull colored cloth, to show their appreciation for clothes. It is to my understanding that monks are also considered to be priests, but unlike the Brahmins, monks can live to be dirt poor, but can also be the happiest person in the world. The main difference is the social class system that they belong to, but oddly enough to say, they are both considered very highly and are honored with respect and admiration by the followers of both religions, and by achieving Dharma, they accomplish their salvation, which is Moshka in Hinduism and Nirvana in Buddhism. Their duty as a devotion to the deities and dedication to the practices was also to be recognized as role models from their followers, so they can learn, follow, and practice the moral conducts and offerings of each religion. Along with that, the followers also educate their beliefs to their families and their children so that the religions can carry on to their later descendents.

Dharma is the universal law of nature and social order, in other words, their duties and their place in life, in which people follow to break the cycle of rebirth and reincarnation and so that they can achieve Moksha and/or Nirvana, which is considered to be their liberation or salvation in Hinduism and Buddhism. In Buddhism, the concept of suffering is caused by life itself and all the emotions that pertain to it, and by taking life and all that is offered to us in that life, for granted (hence, no caste system.) The cycle of struggle and suffering, in addition to being reborn will cease when you reach Nirvana. In Hinduism, to achieve Moksha, it is the same concept of breaking the continuous pattern of rebirth, but it differs from Nirvana because it breaks the chain of continuous rebirth into a caste system. The men and women that strictly practice Hinduism, play different roles in society because of the religiously based social structure.

Women are considered to be blessed beings by the deities. They are also the explanation of their family reputation in their community, and women weren’t allowed to be independent. In the Laws of Manu state, “Her father protects her in her childhood; her husband protects her in her youth; her sons protect her in her old age; a woman is never fit to be independent.” It was the woman’s responsibility to maintain a certain image for the community on behalf of her family. The men worshiped their wives as goddess, but then the women prayed for her husband’s well-being to maintain a structural balance within their relationship and within the family as well. The women were not allowed to be educated and usually are arranged a marriage at a young age (in their teens) to older men who have finished their studies and had obtained their occupations and were ready to start a family of his, own, usually in their 30’s or 40’s. Women in Hinduism are portrayed as goddess and are worshipped by the Hindu communities. The women teach their daughters how to become a good wife like herself, maintain a good education for her sons, and the marriages of her children into different families as well as the unification of two families into one, the community will look upon her as a representation of her family and the entire family will gain their own social status through the woman and how well she is able to maintain the stability of her home, but once she becomes a widow, her status in the society downgrades and is no longer “blessed” without the presence of her husband. Traditionally, in Hinduism, they believe that if the husband dies, it was because the woman did not fulfill her duties as a wife completely, and is punished by becoming a widow. In the past, due to sacred texts, some widows were thrown in to burning fire of her husband’s cremation, alive, to be reincarnated with her husband in the next life when they are reincarnated again.

Ironically, in Buddhism, there aren’t any specific laws about family values and most of the families, practice and follow traditional family values within their culture or their heritage, and mainly, this comes from the idea of detachment. The feelings of desire and having an attachment also cause suffering and will make a person struggle throughout their existence in life. The Buddha had given up his role as a prince to his people, his duty as a father to his children, in addition to being a husband to his wife because of the idea that all individuals suffer because of the 3 poisons in the world, which are moha (ignorance and illusion), dosa (anger, hatred, and violence), and lobha (desire, greed, and attachment).  So in order for a family to have their own family values, they construct their own morals through their cultural traditions and the ethnic philosophies. An example of this would be seen in a dual practice of Confucianism and Buddhism in Asia and the concept of filial piety which is the fundamental principles of a mutual relationship and a mutual respect between family members and the society as well. Ideally, in Confucianism, it is their belief that, “A person’s character tends to be consistent in his encounters with others. If one is in harmony with his family, he will generally be in harmony with his employer. If she is in harmony with his employer, he will generally be harmony with his society. If a person concentrates on achieving harmony as the root of his life and that root is firmly planted, then the harmony surrounding him will increase.  Peace and harmony within the family is surely the root of peace and harmony in society.” This means that a man who is able to maintain stability of his family will also be able to uphold and maintain a good reputation in his society. This is also the correlating belief of a woman’s duty in the Stri Dharma (which means the duty of the female or female role) of Hinduism, and as mentioned earlier, they are the representation and reputation of their family’s image toward their society.

In both Hinduism and Buddhism, they preserve the study and practices of Yoga. Yoga, which has been recently popular practice of exercise in modern day America and other western civilizations help people maintain stability, as well as finding inner peace and harmony within themselves. Yogis are yoga practitionars that spread the study and the history of physical postures that infuse the mind, body, spirit, and soul into one wholesome derivative on a physical plane. These studies date back to ancient India and is ritualistically growing and is practiced everywhere. The Bhagavad Gita states that “Yoga is known as the disconnection (viyoga) of the connection (samyoga) with suffering,” and the Yoga Sutra also states that, “Yoga is the control of the whirls of the mind.” These practices are a fusion of psychophysics to allow one to feel grounded mentally by being in contact within the depths of their spiritual soul in physical postures and positions, along with deep breathing and meditation, to clear the mind from the stress, emotional struggles, and the insanities of life. It allows one to balance all three state of beings with one pose to guide one to the path of liberation and salvation. It is said that when you breathe in, you breathe in positivity and inhale all the greatness that life and nature has to offer, and when you breathe out, you exhale the negativity and stagnation, the grudges and all other emotional factors that play their parts in decision making and life itself.  

The importance of their duties as priests and followers, along with the Yogis and ascetics are to preserve, conserve, and serve. They preserve the core depth of the ancient contexts as a spiritual antiquity of history and of the past.  They conserve the ideas of morality, in their own ways, by spreading the teachings, the philosophies, and their understanding and education of the belief. They serve the people of their community, in addition to dedicating their life into serving their deities. It’s not an easy task to go by the book every day, having self control and maintaining will power to obtain their salvation, is something that is admirably respected by followers, such as myself, and to the later generations to come.   

Someone that posses a good sense of humor is healthier than someone who doesn’t have such a great sense of humor?

Somebody with a good sense of humor is definitely healthier than someone who lacks the essence of another person putting forth effort to keep people around them, as well as themselves to be just “happy.” Having a good sense of humor means that you are able to speak freely without being afraid to offend somebody, as well as being able to accept it when it is brought upon them, as well, naturally, people who aren’t as stressed just look a lot happier and healthier because they don’t allow certain things to bother them as much. By differentiating the difference between a good jokes and allowing other matters to be taken so offensively, you’re confusing your own emotions. The more you don’t let things get to you or bother you as much, the better you will feel. You should always try to concentrate and focus on the depth of the matter before jumping into conclusions, but it never really works out that way because of emotions. With emotions, you’re not able to let certain things go away so easily. There’s an old Eastern medicine phrase that, “Emotions are the causing variable to 100 different diseases,” which is true, because it causes an imbalance in your body, as well as, we can’t be too happy either.

                Scientifically speaking, “laughter is the best medicine,” because when you laugh, you release endorphins, which are chemical hormones in your body, so it allows you forget about pain. It also helps regulate breathing, so laughing is also used in a lot of breathing exercises, it’s a natural way of allowing your diaphragm to contract and relax. It’s also a good workout because its good cardio, it increases your heart rate, as well as working your abdominal muscles too. Have you ever laughed so hard your stomach hurts? It’s because when you laugh, it creates little micro-movements in your abs, allowing them to naturally have a good workout. In the movie, “Patch Adams,” he manipulates cancer patients with laughter and this will naturally allow them to heal by spreading positivity, good energy, hope, and natural happiness which stimulates the body with good, positive, natural effects. Laughter is also good for hypertension patients. People who naturally have a lot of stress and get agitated easily, are the ones with many different blood pressure medications in their bathroom cabinet.

                Life is all about problems and obstacles, opportunities that turn out to be risks, and failures and mistakes that also create opportunities. I’m not indicating that some people go through more problems than others, but a lot of people do take life for granted for more than what it’s worth. Everybody has problems, and everyone has stress, but it’s how you go about solving those problems without letting it get to you mentally that your emotions takes over and controls your ability to think clearly so you can take the appropriate steps and the proper actions to move forward.  If you allow your emotions to slow you down, you’re slowing down on your own, but the universe is still moving and it’s not waiting for you. For what it’s worth, my father has always told me that the 3 poisons in world are greed and desire, anger, hatred, and violence, and ignorance and egotism. He also said that the people who see the glass half empty, rather than allowing it to be seen half full, are the most unhappiest people in the world, and it’s because they take life for granted and they don’t appreciate what they already have.  

This was an assignment I had for class and I so I wanna share it with you guys :)


Morality

Being Atheist:
To my knowledge, a lot of Christians consider anyone who isn’t Christian, Catholic, or a Jew is considered to be an Atheist, or “irreligious,” but does that mean Buddhism, Hinduism, or even just being spiritual is considered to be an atheist as well? People who believe in a “God” can still be morally wrong. Technically, I was born into and was raised as a Buddhist, but out of curiosity I went to a friend’s church retreat and to my understanding, Christians don’t believe in the right to be rewarded for doing something good (which is pretty much Karma for Buddhists) and Buddhists don’t understand the concept of commiting a sin and being okay with it just because God will always “forgive you.” Anyone who isn’t emotionally commited or being attached to a religion doesn’t mean that they don’t have any type of common sense, it just means that they choose not to have a belief in something. I personally, used to just think that all Gods were the same, it’s just in different forms that the practices grew out of because of the different locations and cultures. With my parents, being the dedicated Buddhists, I traditionally grew up in a very cultural/Zen/Confucious atmosphere, but Korean-Americans are also very hardcore Christians as well, especially in my community.

Having Morals:
Being a kid and while growing up, People were always telling me that I’m going to hell because I don’t believe in God, and it was a very touchy subject to me because I felt as if I didn’t do anything that was “morally wrong.” With that said, growing up I also played the “devil’s advocate” and actually lied to my parents that I was going for a jog on a Sunday morning and I went to a church instead in hopes to understand their concept of belief. I realized, being raised into a religion, also makes you feel like you have “no choice,” but then again, I also thought that lying to my parents was also morally wrong. In the end, I just decided to not have a belief because I also feel that there is no wrong way to practice a religion, and I considered (and still consider) every God to be the same God, but just in different forms. No religion has any type of bad value to it either. With my parents pushing me to be a loyal Buddhist to the religion and to my family, and with Christians always judging me and telling me that it’s bad not to believe in Jesus or God, overall people around me pushed me enough to become an Atheist, or at least I call myself an Atheist, but still maintained the respect for all religions in general.

Good or Bad? 
Morality itself, is having a personal foundation to yourself into making a judgement into believing what your definition of right and/or wrong may or maynot be. It doesn’t make up for a lack of common sense, thinking logically, or even having your own ethics. Right now, I am fascinated by the concept of how Buddhism works and the teachings because I actually took the time out to learn about it rather than my parents forcing me to just “be it,” so when people ask me, “What’s your religion?” I just reply by saying, “I’m an Atheist, born in to a Buddhist family, but I’m putting religion on hold until I can fully appreciate and dedicate the religion on my own time and at my own pace.” I’m 25 years-old right now, and from the time I was in elementary school all the up until I made this decision, I was religiously a confused kid, but then again, I didn’t need people to tell me what the difference between right and wrong is. By having a religion, doesn’t mean you’re not going to have feelings (feelings of anger, hatred, greed, impatience, etc…) and with having those feelings, it’s how you to control your emotions and what actions you take as a result of those emotions. You’re always going to end up doing what you desire to, regardless of whether you believe in a God or not. You still have a conscience and you still know that even though it is bad, you may still end up doing it because of what you desire to do. So from the time I made this decision, all the way up until present day today, I have not lost an arguement about being Aethist because I’ve seen it from both sides and different angles. It’s all about thinking logically as well as being able to think with your head and not with your heart, so yes, it is possible for Atheists to be as moral as religious believers.

So 2 days I went to Trump’s Taj Mahal in Atlantic City, NJ with a friend as a farewell get-away before she moves to Korea. She and I spent a day at the spa getting a mani, a pedi, and a facial :)

The facial masseuse was doing a skin evaluation and informed me of my “clogged pores” and how extreme it was for someone my age. Afterwards, I told her all the skin products I use, which weren’t too bad for my skin, but she had made some suggestions that may also be useful. Then something occured to me, I work overnight, and I know I may be a dual-hypocrite for being a holistic healer and all, but I am a smoker as well. But you gotta understand, I sleep less than 24 hours a week due to work and school (both on a full-time schedule), so I need a stimulant to keep me up at night time… (I know it sounds like an excuse and it probably is, but I can guarentee you all that up till this day, I had never said I’m going to quit as a new years resolution, or even a promise to anyone, I will quit… eventually… after i finish grad-school :P)

Now, due to the Eastern Circadian Rhythm…

Between the time of 3AM-5AM the flow of qi is most directed in the Lung Meridian.

.’. Therefore, since I’m awake, when my body is supposed to be at rest, smoking a cigarette, during the time that the lung channel is supposed have vital flow of qi… I guess that clogs my pores to an extreme >.<

(Jacked from Wiki)

And according to this diagram, the emotion associated with the Lung organ is also grief and sadness…

According to TCM, the Lung fuctions of the lungs are:
-Controls respiration
-Governs the qi
-Opens into the nose
-Controls SKIN & HAIR!!! (I think that’s also the reason why I’m shedding)
-Regulates water passages
-The Lung also starts the cycle in the flow of qi

According to this, if you look at the soles of your feet below the toes, that’s the lung/shoulder reflexology…

I’ve had this corn on my lung/shoulder reflex since I was 9 years-old!!!!

And according to this, metal is the mother of water….

Therefore…

And according to the wiki table I jacked about four pictures ago, the yin/yang meridian associated with the metal element is Lung/Large Intestine…

And SOOOOO…

AND THEN BOOOM!!

okay well, you can’t see it here, but I’ve taken multiple shots for you…
             

I went to a physical therapist a year ago (or so, more or less) and they told me of my lymphoma on my shoulder (to be exact, it was on my rhomboid muscles, in between my spine and my scapula) and it literally looks like a round ball on my shoulder, just like the one on my foot :)

So, to all of you I say this:
(This is one of those “special message from the author” type-of-thing)

I have been an routine smoker for about 9 years now, but as much as I do the things I do that have harmful effects on my body, I try to balance it out by doing things that will have beneficial effects on my body…I can never tell anyone to quit smoking, or even advise them (Unless, they’re like one of those people from the ”stop smoking now!” commercials) I can only tell you to try to look at iit from a broader aspect rather than a specific point. If you LOVE smoking cigarettes, I can’t stop you…In fact, NO ONE can, it’s up to you… Quit smoking, or TRY to balance yourself out by walking more, exercising more, choosing a healthier diet, practicing qi-gong, yoga, laughing more, etc… For every 1 bad thing you do to your body, balance it out with 3 good things you can do to your body :)

BTW…This is somewhat a non-scientific way of proving my point:
I live by the quote, “Everything happens for a reason,” and “If we cross paths again, see you then,” as well as “the Universe always settles the score” I’m a hardworker, I work hard and play harder (when I feel that I deserve it) I’m not even shittin you when I say this, but the day before I left to go to Atlantic City, I actually graduated College :)
Now, the buses around here give you $25 (amount depending on the bus because they are so many different companies) of playing money on a “thing-a-ma-jiggy” (card, coupon, voucher etc… ) to promote business (meaning: pretty much they’re going to rob you until you’re broke as a mofo loll) With the $25, I played the slot machine title “The Wheel of Fortune”

Throughout the years of fuckin around and doing shit, I never hit the slot machine like this, that’s why I wouldn’t have never played it if it weren’t for the $25 “thing-a-ma-jiggy” I probably would’ve never played :P
*Although I’ve seen my mother win at most a G or 2, it was never really my thing… but I guess all that hard work paid off :)


   

*Ding! *Ding! *Ding! *Ding! *Ding! *Ding! *Ding!

Played 5 lines at a time because I want to play and won 2 lines out of that :)
Came out to about 800 quarters, which was about $200…BUT STILL!!! The glass looks better half full rather than half empty no?

To be stagnant: (As per dictionary.com) 

1. to cease to run or flow, as water, air, etc.
2. to be or become stale or foul from standing, as a pool of water.
3. to stop developing, growing, progressing, or advancing

When I think about stagnation, I think about one of these:

                                   or one of these….

                      

*If you were a driver in one of those cars, wouldn’t you be pissed??

Emotional Stagnation:

-Stagnation is pretty much a blockage. It refers to people who aren’t able to express their feelings (aka “guys”) have bottled emotions, which causes depression, mood disorders, anger, and irritability.
-FEELINGS of guilt, grief, discouraged, emptiness, being dull, gloomy, unhappy, dismal, disappointed, mentally defeated and any other synonyms relating to those words effects your everday life and your ritualistic routines.
-Symptoms include loss of and/or excess appetite, anhedonia- meaning loss of interest or pleasure in activities or hobbies you once found to be pleasurable and/or joyous, insomnia (or frequently waking up in the middle of the night), habitual sighing (a different way of releasing emotions), fatigue, frequent alcohol consumption (may cause psoriasis) and/or drug abuse, and creating a “fake” happiness or an “emotional bubble” for your mental well-being, for those of you in denial. Just letting you know, that one day that bubble is going to pop!

In Buddhism, there are about 108 beads aligned together (kind of looks like a rosary) but each are said to represent lies, impurities, passions, and wants that we, as humans, encounter everyday and in Eastern medicine, there is an old Chinese saying that emotions are the most common causing variable for a 100 different diseases.

**The way I see it, stagnation is a blockage that causes a build-up, and then creates a back-up, and eventually may cause you pain. I guess one way you may want to look at it, is if you had a minor cut or prior injury, that you’ve ignnored, that caused a bigger problem, like an infection or even swelling.

My point? Don’t wait until it becomes an issue!!

Honestly speaking though, when I’m driving on a free-flowing road, and I hit traffic… I’m not gonig to lie, I can’t even last 10 minutes before I get road rage! And 10 minutes is nothing compared to days, weeks, months, or even years of oppressed, suppressed, dismissed emotions that were disregarded at the moment.

We all have one life to live and yes, I admit, some things are best left unsaid, but there comes a day, when holding back on emotions causes grudges, which may cause anger. Anger always brings a (+) 1 [usually with anger comes, frustration] and frustration causes irritability, which may or may not, but typically allows a person to become irate or have an irate personality. Having an irate personality, can also have an effect on the amount of negativity you give off to others as well.

Some Healthy Ways of Emotional Release:
-Crying: Crying is the number one way of really letting it all out. Especially for those of you who don’t let it all out oftenly.
         
True Story: About a year ago, I was attending an academic institution that specializes in Eastern Medicine and Holistic Healing, and in one of the classes, we were practicing Chakra meditation and studying the different energy levels starting from bottom up. I’m not even kidding when I say, I’m a complete bitch. I’m cold-hearted, but I’m humble and I’m the biggest douche you’ll ever meet, but I have a huge heart. Anyways, back to the story, during voluntary meditation, when it came to exploring the solar plexus chakra, I felt a huge lump in my throat. I kept swallowing and swallowing, to kind of try to push, or even make the lump go down. With in seconds, my nasal cavity started to feel tingly and numb, and my eyes were watery and filled with tears.

Now, your Solar Plexus (in the Western concept) is the network of nerves that are situated in upper abdomen. They correspond to the groups of cells in your pancreas, as well as your adrenal glands. It is mostly related to the metabolic and digestive systems. Key issues governed by Manipura are issues of personal power, fear, anxiety, opinion-formation, introversion, and transition from simple or base emotions to complex. Physically, the Solar Plexus Chakra governs digestion, mentally it governs personal power, emotionally it governs expansiveness, and spiritually, all matters of growth. It is also the inner ego within yourself and the insight of who you truly are and works with your ability to acquire and gain knowledge. [Definition aquired through Wikipedia]

I was told by many healthcare professionals, that it was an emotional outburst of post-traumatic stress, and yet, they have no idea why, but only I know why…

-Eating Healthy: Now, I know this may sound cliche, but honestly, from personal experience, having a burger is only satisfying to your mouth. You can still eat healthy and be full at the same time. You know there are many days when you get greasy, fast food, you feel heavy, dull, and lethargic. Eventually, you end up catching the “itis” or aka ”food coma,” and you just don’t wanna do shit. I completely understand, but indulging on food until you hate yourself, really brings you down mentally and emotionally. You constantly obsess over the fact that you “feel fat” and you get annoyed by what your habits caused you to ”feel.” As a matter of fact, the leading cause of anorexia and bulimia is emotional, which may consist of fear, acceptance, insecurity etc…

*Honestly, I used to indulge on massive amounts of cakes~ WHY?!? Because at the moment, I thought I was “eating happiness” but how come I felt like shit as a result of the aftermath?

-Breathing & Meditation: You want to completely clear your thoughts and concentration, and just let go with every breath. Not only is this a wonderful method of relieving stress, but it will allow one to gather and center oneself. Before you know, you will be at peace with your mind, body, spirit, and emotions :)

-Yoga & Stretching: From personal experience, I find that intensively working out, to the point where you’re sweating balls, and increasing your heart rate makes you into an even more angrier person. Working out only helps you forget the feeling for a minute, because you’re concentrated on your work-out, but stretching and doing light yoga, allows more blood flow, and “flowing” is always a good thing. Much better than “blockage.”

-Walking: Come on, really? We walk everyday, what’s a couple of more steps? Is it really going to kill you?

In Eastern medicine, arthritis, constipation, and cancer are all related to stagnation. Walking- prevents arthritis, aids in digestion, prevents cancer. Plus it’s an easy way to lose weight and be healthy.

*10 minutes of walking, 3 times a day is already 30 minutes!! If you walk at a steady, fast pace, you may be able to walk at least a mile in 10 minutes…In fact, I now many people who can run a mile in 10 minutes or even less!!

-Massage: A massage can increase your range of motion, reduce pain, strengthen muscles, increase circulation, and may reduce the intense level of stress. It helps you gain better posture and alleviate pain from built-up adhesions and scar tissue (from stress and stagnation) in your muscles.

**Part of bettering yourself and trying to live a happy, healthy, productive life, means that there sacrafices, as well as self determination.

…..with that said, nothing in this world is for free. In order to achieve something, you must invest the time and dedication for it!! -I may sound like an ad for P90X, but it’s true!!

I just thought that this picture was so hilarious…

So anyways, at first I was using this as a way of releasing my emotions, but now, I will focus on emotions and how they promote diseases. I strongly believe that all diseases come from emotions and, as a holistic healer (meaning I treat the body as a whole, ex: mind, body, and spirit, rather than some of it’s parts), I strongly encourage those around me to feel better about themselves and as a result, they actually end up bettering themselves. Although, most of the people I come across are “lost souls” and are hopeless, about 75% of the people I treat or heal come back to me as a life coach. Legally, I’m not allowed to give them psychological advice, but I can give them advice as a friend. In fact, about 30%~40% of those people end up in tears as a result of emotional release.

The word Chakra, derived from Hindu Sanskrit, translates into the literal definition meaning wheel, circle, vortex, or center. They are spiritual energies that live within us and they gather in and disperse energy to and from the environment within our natural surroundings, as well as the universe itself. They are in charge of the functional effects of one’s emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual aspects of our daily lives. There are 7 major Chakras that are located and aligned in the center of the body starting from the coccyx all the way to the tip of your skull. They reside in your ethereal soul and they express the embodiment of the spiritual energy on the physical plane. No one person can live a happy, healthy life without feelings, as well as the energy received and given from one soul to another. We know that can affect your daily routines, weather it may be good or bad and we all know that one person who is having a bad day can give off negativity to others and that can ruin our day…

-Patch Adams M.D.

As a matter of fact, the leading cause of cancer is stress!! They say, “laughter is the best medicine,” and it is!! Laughing releases endorphins and it’s naturally and physiologically good for you!

The Benefits of Laughter:

-Muscle relaxation
-Pain reduction: Humor allows one to forget about aches and pain
-Releases endorphins
-Increase circulation
-Increases heart rate-so it’s also a good cardio
-Works on your ab muscles- Ever laugh so hard your stomach hurts?
-Benefits in respiration
-Reduces stress hormones
-Increase your immune system
-Good for your hypertension


                                      

-Note to self: gotta go see this movie

WARNING!!!!! Overwhelmingly laughing for a long period of time, to the point where it is highly uncontrollable, may cause death, so laugh at own risk!!

Current Song: Love The Way You Lie Part II- By Rihanna Feat. Eminem

One of the things I’m really good at is sorting problems out and logically trying to find a reason or solution to a problem. I’m AMAZING at giving out advices about personal and/or professional relationships, BUT it’s mainly because I think with my head and not with my heart. I set aside all emotional aspects of my human development and then, I recreate the situation in my mind and logically give an explanation for it.

*Hence, I will become a successful, independent individual :D

Anyways, going back to the original topic, I’ve noticed a lot of relationships around me aren’t as it used to be. Back in high-school the fights weren’t as big, the yelling and the screaming wasn’t as loud, the nagging wasn’t as consistent, the chasing around and playing games were all part of real games (ex: playing video games or physically chasing each other around)

So my point is, when did life become so complicated? You build your habits when you’re 16 or 17 and that makes you into either the person you are today or the person who never wants to be that person you once were. So therefore, I’m guessing that as you get older the little things that never bothered you, within the first 3 months of the relationship, starts building up and bothering you? Logically speaking, let’s be real here, some people fight night and day, just constantly argue, but still consider themselves to be “soul mates,” and I find that to be hilariously ironic. Technically, it’s the inner fear in you that knows that you’ve only “settled,” and you know you deserve someone better, but you don’t want to live alone for the the rest of your life. They say that when you don’t look for it, it comes to you naturally, but sometimes… you just feel like you’ve waited forever. 

Honestly, I’m no hopeless romantic or anything like that, TRUST ME, I’m really not and every single one of my friends can vouch for me. I’ve been in and out of dating scene, and/or maybe seeing people here and there, but nothing serious to a degree where I would actually feel that this is someone I can settle down with. If you really think about it, the habits that you carry right now, will carry on until you’re in your 30’s, 40’s, and even your 50’s and the only way you can break a habit is self-dedication. I’m currently and constantly working on bettering myself and my life and continuously trying to build a better lifestyle for me, myself, and I, as well as creating a very financially stable future for myself. By having feelings, are you able to hide those feelings at work and still continue to do a good job at what you’re doing? Are you able to concentrate in class knowing that your focus is elsewhere? Are you able to be creative or think outside of the box without thinking is he or she going to get mad if I say this or that? If love is so great, then why do I have to watch what I say? Why can’t I freely say something without hurting your feelings, when it was not my intentions in the first place? And most importantly, why do you need constant reassurance that he/she loves you?

What I thought love was, even though I was young and immature (to be precise, I was 19 years-old at the time) but, it felt so real at the time, only at that time. Does love make you want to throw away your entire life, just to be with that one person whom you constantly end up fighting with? Would you choose love or betray your own blood? If it’s not with him, does that mean you can’t be with anyone else? AT ALL?!? All these thoughts are rushing through my head, even though he may have been my first love, I don’t think that any of that was “real love”. I carry that experience and the lessons learned with me every single day of my life, and yet I’m scared to be alone, but scared to be with someone at the same time.

Truthfully, I just don’t want to waste my time and energy on something I don’t “think” and/or “feel” that it’ll work out. I don’t want to put my life on hold anymore, and that’s the biggest fear I feel that overpowers the desire for me to be in a serious, committed relationship.

Eminem’s verse:

“It’s morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Sshh… Hush baby, speak softly, tell me you’re awfully sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me!!
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me!!
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
That we’ll have each other’s backs, ‘cause we’re that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’?
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
But together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refuse counselin’
This house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
With you I’m in my fuckin’ mind, without you, I’m out it”

Final Thought:

**If this “L” word is about feeling mad, upset, distracted, annoyed, insecure, played, psychotic and any other feelings pertaining those words, then I’d rather wait it out.

“It’s kinda hard with you not around, know you’re in heaven smiling down, watching us while we pray for you, everyday we pray for you, till the day we meet again, in my heart is where I’ll keep you friend…”

When you spend enough time hating someone, you really don’t care to know if they are even dead or alive…so why does this bother me so much to know that you’re no longer here? I’ve spent days and days, months, and even years to try to comprehend what you have done and when it all comes down to it, it was always because of greed. I did love you and even considered you to play a role huge role in my life and you’ve played your role for 17 years, but I guess that didn’t really mean anything to you did it?

The day before you passed, I actually cried myself to sleep hoping and wishing that you’d pass away and be out of my life forever. I felt so numb. I had no feelings, no opinions, no satisfaction, no nothing!! But now that you have, why do I still feel so shiitty?

It’s as if you’ve won, either way, dead or alive!

I’ve always been considered to be tough on the exterior, as well as my insides, but the minute they opened the casket, I took one deep breath and as soon as I saw your face, tears started to roll down my face and that’s when I realized, the universe always finds a way to even the score.

You’ve recieved your karma, as did I, and you’ve suffered enough…..
Therefore, I let go of all my hatred and all my grudges against you, and may you finally Rest In Peace….